Aight so I have a paper due in like… a few hours and I haven’t even started it. I also have a bunch of RA stuff to do in the morning so I’ll probably fail the paper. Someone left a comment that I might be experiencing seasonal affective disorder, S.A.D. for short. How’s this for irony? In my 9th grade computer applications class, I typed up a PowerPoint about SAD and thought it was a load of bull. Ahhh, I’d laugh if this website didn’t completely overpower my emotions.

So I matched all the information from the website with the last few entries and it scared me yet made a crap load of sense. I thought it was just senioritis and a mono relapse. Turns out I’m just plain ol’ depressed. But I’m Black, and (the belief is that) we don’t get depressed. Man, this totally sucks. Why now? It’s senior year. Damn.

My internet research gave me a bunch of treatment options. One of my residents has one of those lights so I tried that a few days this week. It totally flipped my sleep schedule. And then I tried to force myself to hang out with all my friends but it screwed me for homework. Know what? Maybe I’m trippin. Maybe this is all in my head. I’m no health professional. I’m a damn good actor though.