I felt like I needed to edit the last post and the more I changed, the more I realized how utterly ridiculous it was. I'm still very unhappy, but I had to reassess the situation.

First, I love my family. I get upset with some of the choices they make but I'm sure it's mutual. I can't ignore the proof that we need each other.

Even though my social is a shaky and classes are hard, I will push through this. I'm damn good in the clutch. I just have to overcome my fears of what's to come and realize that people grow and change. Professionally, I need a little help. I'm stuck. But as far as friends go, I just have to accept what's going on in everyone's lives.

And with girls? Although I would've liked to have at least one serious relationship by this point in my life—actually, that part really sucks. (I have to laugh) I can't find a positive there, but I'll keep trying. Honestly, who would like me right now? I'm a wreck. But I have potential!(Aight, I'm done. I can't stop laughing at myself)

There are few loose ends that brought me here. Thursday night I went to dinner with the crush from last year. Naturally, it was bangin. She's still wonderful but I know where we are. Friday, I spent ten hours in the lab with a classmate rolling out a project. Greatness. Never had so much fun failing. All I really want now is a chicken parm sandwich and someone to go to the Global Union event with me. Guess I'll settle for that sandwich. Have a good one.